Oh uh, hey! Welcome to my uh... Mess of a website!

[04/25/2025]

I tried my best to make the website adaptative without using any "@media" always hated it when I was in class and our teacher asking us to do so, so instead i tried some other ways with some success and some issues (yes I see you music button, I'll check on you when I'll feel like it), speaking of which, all the audios you'll hear from it are made by me, some good, some bad, some that's fire.

[04/26/2025]
These last days were pretty rough, I'm even working on making my own DIY air conditioner using a fan, iced cans, and a box of cardboard LOL.

[04/27/2025]

I went to a party my friend invited me to, not gonna lie it was good, but I felt so easily overwhelmed I couldn't stay more than 4 hours, also it was surely because except talking to 4 of my long lost over time friends I didn't knew what to do except to drink, of course I don't drive, went home by foot, wasn't so far from home... But yeah I felt like I wasn't at my place at all, it's a weird feeling that I have tho, I crave for connection and to make new friends, yet my introvert personality won't let me do so, not that I'm shy, but I'm kind of hostile to people talking to me out of nowhere IRL...

[08/04/2025]

I'm so happy to be able to use some songs from someone I like to listen when offline, I won't use them for the website but I may add them to songs I will use when streaming, of course I will credit C20G and the others when I will use their songs!

[08/08/2025]

Lately, I've got my mental energy drained by my apartment mate ─SHE EVEN HAD PEOPLE DOING STUFF IN HERE FOR MORE THAN 48 HOURS STRAIGHT─ and as I'm more of a introvert guy IRL, the only fact of knowing that 7+ people were constantly in the living room was making me tired only by hearing them, they weren't even that loud TBH... But yeah I was so tired lately that even if i usually sleep for 2 + a dice of 6, i was more sleeping for 10 hours straight almost everyday, and still feeling dead asleep even after that...

[08/09/2025]

I'm online baby! Now if anyone looks for [sharen_44 Vtuber] on Google they will find me! I was stressing out because Google Search Console "GSC" was telling me they couldn't find my [sitemap.xml]...

[08/10/2025]

I want to personally say that AMD is one of the worst Hardware maker that I never used for my computer.

They have the best value for money on paper, but really, it's poorly done in the software side, going even to ─if you use their Drivers─ make your Hardware going way too past their "overclocking" limit charges, making them completely restart. Their app has HTML encoding issues, maybe they changed their pages formatting and now you see every HTML addons in the text, unlike on my website where I had this issue and the fix was so easy I laughed!

Anyway, I even looked on Twitter and Reddit and a lot of people that has my (or similar generation) Graphics Card has a lot of issues with their driver since this year, a lot of blackscreens and freezes when gaming, AND I EVEN PLAY GAMES THAT DON'T FULLY USES IT AND IT STILL CRASHES WITHIN 1 TO 3 HOURS OF GAMEPLAY! I DON'T EVEN OVERHEAT IT AS IT STAYS AT 150-160°F EVEN ON FULL LOAD!!!

That's also the reason why I have sudden crashes when I stream, and to prevent even more crashes I use my PNG model... So again, Don't go to amd for your graphics card, or if you do ─Please god of the "ElectroConduction" has mercy on you─ Do not use their official Drivers for their grapgics card...

[08/12/2025]

Oh My God! It's happening! I'm now Officially at sharen44.com! It seems I have issues tho, I'm already fixing all this!

[08/12/2025]

Now you can watch me direclty in my Links section when I'm live on Twitch! I was forced to use their own API as a JS injection because of Github's server restrictions...

[08/15/2025]

I miss the time where ads were not "ads" when it wasn't so branded, so bland, so lifeless, I miss those funny ads, brandings trashing each other, some you only understood the ads at the end of them... now it's all "With Smellass care creme, you can now smell like you shat yourself and the creme is good for your skin, adding 1'000% of what the skin needs, meaning they will be 10 time more(...)", I think if I ever do something to sell, I would do some engaging ads yeah...

Anyway this post was made on my phone, so if there are some visual issues I will fix them tonight!

[08/16/2025]

If you ever read this whole blog about me, it means that at least you're a little bit of a black sheep like me. And if you like owning stuff -I'm sure you do- you've surely heard about "You'll own nothing and you'll be happy". You've probably also seen a lot of technology fall into obsolescence because of lack of budget from the company that made it, or them shutting down entirely. Our privacy is at its worst, they're taking everything from us, and now we're even losing physical objects, hardware, and tools that are tied to the cloud...

I'll change my Internet profile picture to Clippy, that's it, maybe even add him to my streams too...

I recommend checking out Louis Rossmann and his project of building a wiki listing all companies that act against users, over at consumerrights.wiki. Anyone can support and help with his project! We need to push back against corporations that think they can do whatever they want with us!

[08/22/2025]

Lately I wasn't on my best mood, being either getting bored by all these graphics driver crashes by AMD™ while gaming... Or even the heat...

I will make a KSP Let's play, using some mods ect, making different big projects from scratch, a tourist ship, a station, I'll maybe make another page with gameplays like [KSP][Elite_Dangerous][Minecraft], but for now i will only write at the date the gameplay if there is, showing what i did that day ect.

[09/03/2025]

Damn... It was way worse than I expected... The past days between last post and today was so bad... Also I'm trying to add ads, will do my best to not have the ones forcing you to watch, some little banners here and there...

[09/29/2025]

26 days without making any updates here huh... I guess I must have really been in a bad mood not to update my own webpage...
Between Discord calls and watching stuff online... I haven't been doing much lately, my attention span has been severely reduced thanks to YouTube Shorts, I find myself more and more often just "doomscrolling"...

What have I done in the meantime, oh right!
I watched "Kaguya-sama: Love Is War" which is a really good anime in the "Romantic Comedy" category ← a genre of anime I don't usually watch ─
but it made me laugh a lot, not because of the absurd way our main characters deal with love, but because of all the gags, jokes, and effects that feel straight out of some kind of "low-budget documentary" about the student council of a prestigious school, and the narrator's voice... an absolute treat!

[10/08/2025]

I don't even stream lately, not that I don't want to, but more that i can't really do that without having unexpected crashes and issues... I'm also trying to find a job to be able to live you know, sadly most of my applications were rejected, they officially hire unexperienced people but they don't in reality, what a waste of time anyway...
I also watched the first season of "Chainsaw Man", was expecting way worse so I was surprised in a good way! Even if the blending of 3D and 2D wasn't the best in the animation, it wasn't that bad.
On gaming side, I went back into Elite after some time, getting "My first colony system" some more construction sites, trying to make it into a system that will be having all needed goods for future expanding colonies...

[11/19/2025]

These last 30 days have been something... between jobs that say they'll "get back to you" and the ones that straight up ghost you,
it almost feels like the experience of some random guy on dating apps...

Example: I'm applying for a very normal job, and the manager who runs multiple places tells me:
"Sorry, I'm not looking for anyone at the moment, I'll contact you if I ever need someone (...) hoping to see you soon [Sharen]!",
and not even two days later I see a job post for that exact same job on "France Travail"???
And of course I had to move just to repeat everything already in my CV and cover letter, as if I had achieved some insane things in one week!!!

And my temp agency only finds me 2-hour jobs, and I don't blame them for it,
but I'd still rather work 8 hours in a single day than only 2 hours per day through the whole week...

Anyway! Putting that job problem aside, I have some projects on hold:

★ I had eyes bigger than my stomach trying to think about a chunk system for my first game,
I think I'll start with real basics instead and make simpler games, so I'll continue with Godot!

★ My streams make no sense with my PC crashing randomly, so I took a break from streaming...

★ I'll contact my artist friend again and maybe make some visual novels with him,
we had plans to make stories together, and just thinking about it I already have 2 or 3 ideas in mind that could be interesting,
but since he's often busy with his Art school I don't want to bother him too much... So we'll see...

★ I found an old excerpt of one of my old Web Novel projects, I'll rework it and probably write it here instead of on Wattpad!
If I ever feel like it!

Even though this list isn't in any particular order, I think I'll slowly get back to Godot,
it's not like my old project taught me nothing, I managed to save it when I changed Windows version!

And if I feel like it, I'll make a dev log page as a button, close to the one that changes the order of the posts I write here!

[01/01/2026]

Happy New Year and Merry Christmas!

A lot of things happened during the last month:

★ I got a new job, working for Mister Ronald McDonald. Yes, I know, I know, it's not great to work there, but they were the only ones to accept me sadly, and I get free food on top of that!

★ I got a new controller, so now I can finally play without having to constantly counteract the drift I had on my last one. Bought it as my own Christmas present to myself...

★ Hopefully, if I am kept at my job, I will be able to buy a new GPU. Not as good as my AMD, but at least I won't have graphic issues anymore. Luckily, I bought enough RAM before the shortage, but GPU prices spiked too because of VRAM, damn you AI!

★ Speaking of AI, I got my hands on a locally hosted AI TTS that uses an audio recording to make a soundalike voice from it. Sadly, it uses my CPU because it doesn't allow GPU usage if it's from AMD. Oh and it's English only, I tried it with a French voice and it turns it into English with a very strong French accent, was funny nonetheless!

I'm still looking for another job, but if I find nothing and McDonald's keeps me, I guess I will be happy enough. At least I will have a job and free food, so it kills two birds with one stone. I will be able to put more money aside for my GPU and maybe be able to buy it next month.

For next month, my main goal is to stay consistent at work and see if I can finally upgrade my GPU without blowing my savings. If everything goes well, I should have a clearer idea of where I am heading job-wise too.

From now on, I think I will do weekly or monthly updates here. As I am busy with work, I have little time for myself anymore...

[01/04/2026]

Just finished watching Kaguya sama's OAV's, with my friend, it was one of the best OAV that I've ever seen, really funny and well animated!

I'm still waiting for my paycheck to see if I'll be able to manage buying a new GPU now or if I'll have to wait another month...

Sorry for the inconvenience of the last update, it seems that when I copy-pasted the text from my phone I had duplicated some of the blog posts, I now have removed the duplicates!

Except that I don't have much to say for now, except for the fact that I found out another fan of the OC Riyo Kaede, from the artist Mikuneki!

I find her so cute it's a menace to my poor soul!

[02/21/2026]

I finally have a working graphics card again! I've been able to stream and play games without dealing with graphic crashes, it's such a relief. I barely slept because I wanted to enjoy it as much as possible!

Streams are back! I'll try to be consistent and make quality streams. I'll also try to make some shorts for KSP explanations, mod testing, and other stuff!

Other than that, last night my roommate, who's supposed to leave at the end of the month, threw a party in the apartment without telling me. I sleep right next to the living room, so I ended up waking up at 3AM because of the music and people yelling. I really can't wait for her to move out...

What else to say... I don’t have much to share right now. I'll try to post updates more regularly, but I can't promise anything. I've got quite a few projects in mind and I'm pretty busy with work, but I'll try to find some time to post updates here!

[02/25/2026]

I got sick, I have to say that I had a really hard time at work these last few days, I found myself doing more cleaning than cooking (even though my assigned post for the last few days was cooking),

in itself it's not doing the cleaning that bothers me the most, it's the fact that I had to do it for 3 days in a row, I even ended up blacking out on Sunday when I got back home...

I think I even got sick because of that, luckily I have a good immunity, I only lost my voice and I cough a bit, but I don't have a fever or anything, it's just that I'm exhausted and I have trouble talking...

That's even why I'm not streaming tonight, I don't have the voice for it, and I'm not sure it's a good idea to stream while being sick, even if it's just a little cough and I don't have a fever, I prefer to rest to be in shape for my work!

I'm also preparing to stream KSP! Back again! I'm trying little by little to put mods back in to have lots of systems to explore, and I'm trying to make quality streams, with explanations about the mods I use, and other stuff!

I'm also going to rework my Streamer.bot to have commands and other stuff so that people don't get too bored watching my streams, because we all know that in KSP there are a lot of phases that are not too fun to watch...